I tell you what. I’m am just out of sorts lately – and that is just all there is to it. I’m pregnant, right? So that means that sometime early fall I should be having a baby, right? But my anxiety over actually carrying this child full-term is so out of control that I STILL can not even allow myself to confidently view myself as still pregnant in a month. Much less actually prepare to have a baby.
So I just stare at the hairs on my arms and wonder why this new lotion I used this morning seems to make them stand upright all day.
Then theres the whole “Am I getting laid off?” thing. I am not really fond of sending resumes or getting interviewed since I haven’t been laid off yet. BUT – there has been no votes of confidence handed out that we still won’t be. So, I’m passively looking and aggresively worrying. But – when it comes to actually trying to mentally make plans to budget money or buy furniture? I can’t seem to let myself since I may not have a job in a few weeks.
Instead? I’m looking at the pictures on the wall that LilZoot drew of me and wonder what it would be like to live without knees or elbows.
Finally? There’s this whole “moving” thing. MrZ is still trying to get the house ready for use to move into it – but since it’s not ready yet – we can’t really move much. And we don’t have a truck even if we did want to take some furniture over. We’re still aiming for Memorial Day weekend, but since we need most of our stuff to live until then, it’s hard to decide what to pack up.
So. I’ve decided to absentmindedly put my hair into hundreds of little bitty braids while surfing the web for more Brad and Angelina gossip.
Yep. I’m in a bizarro place right now. Waiting for houses and children and jobs – and doing absolutely NOTHING to prepare for any of it.
Please Send Donuts.
Angelina – yummmmy.
I’m not helping much, am I?
Dude, sounds like me lately. Sick Mom? Nah! Distracted at work? Nah. Avoidance? BIGTIME!
Hey! I just noticed the pregnancy stats on the side! Yea! I didnt realize you were at 17 weeks already. Man how time flys.
Take a deep breath and relax girl. My grammaw used to say, let the chips fall where they may. OK…she didn’t really used to say that but, don’t worry everything will fall into place.
well i act like that and am completely spaced out most of the time- and i’m not pregnant, so at least youve got a (really really) good reason for it!
p.s. sorry for sending the same comment three times on the last post, i got caught up in a clicking frenzy
Life without elbows and knees…..hmm I would probably have less bruises.
I would loan you our truck but I’m not sure it will make it to our neighbors let alone Ala bama….
Ps. I expect angelina /brad/jennifer updates.
No I’m not too needy
Try not to worry about something that hasn’t happen yet…(yeah easier said then done)
So do you believe the Brad and Angelina Gossip? Not sure what to think just yet.
I have not been here in awhile- so I have to catch up on all the new posts-Love the new site redesign, you look great, and Memorial Day weekend sounds like a hot move- if you are like us in Texas- the sooner the better chicka!!
Oh hon, you have ennui (and can I just take a moment to thank the Gilmore Girls for introducing the concept of ennui to the world? Ta) and the ONLY thing that fixes ennui is chocolate (TimTams if possible, but you’re in America so . . . I don’t know what) and Pringles or Kettle Chips and a schmaltzy chick flick. Trust me, I’m the queen of comfort food! AND you’re eating for two so you can justify it