Man, Mondays are really getting on my nerves. With the soccer and the childbirth classes and the TELEVISION that just HAS to be watched, I’m getting to bed too late after having done too much. This makes Tuesday mornings always mornings of late starts and large quantities of cursing. I mean, it’s 6:30 and I’m still in my pajamas and have done NOTHING to get ready for the day.
Bah.
But, we only have one more childbirth class and then we can have the baby! I’m really glad we took the classes. First of all? Our teacher is really great. She’s funny and entertaining as well as super-smart and informed. I don’t know how much I’ve really learned, since I’ve actually had a child before, but just hearing about it from another real person has kinda changed my perspective on a lot of things. I’m still scared to death, but I have more confidence that MrZ and I will actually survive childbirth, which I was worried about for awhile.
She talked last night about postpartum and the emotional roller coaster it can be. I’ve said this many times to MrZ but I experienced absolutely ZERO “down” sides of postpartum with lilZ. I had a hard time nursing, and that caused me grief, but in terms of emotions? I didn’t cry or get depressed. This time though? I can already tell it’s going to be different. I was not aware of the possibilities of miscarriage or stillbirth with LilZ, so I didn’t spend the 9 months worrying about him. But with NikkiZ? I have spent the entire pregnancy scared she was going to die. Many of you can relate, I know. And typically, dealing with the arrival of something you worried for nine months wouldn’t make it? Can make you KRAZEE and I can already tell that’s going to be me.
Just the thought of holding the daughter I worry about 20 out of 24 hours a day? Already makes me hysterical.
In other words? Pray for MrZ. He’s going to need it.
So glad to hear that the childbirth classes were worth it from someone who’s “been there” before! I start mine a week from today and have been really nervous about it.
Childbirth: I am much more worried about postpartum depression and sleep deprivation than I am of actual labor. Dead serious here.
Monday Night TV: I am VERY impressed so far! Arrested Development is a no-brainer, but Kitchen Confidential, How I Met Your Mother, Out of Practice are really great surprises. I realized again last night now much I had missed having a nice, simple sitcom to look for. You know, to help beat that postpartum depression I will surely be facing! haha.
I loved our childbirth teacher. first of all she had SEVEN children so right there…I felt pretty confident with her expertees. And another thing I liked was that I realized the hho hoo ha ha’s were not for me. I almost passed out during he class. that darn asthma! So It was important to find that out a head of time!
And in response to your overrated post.. I like read you for the same reasons I like to talk to my ‘real life friends’ . Your interesting to talk to (read) and sometimes I agree with you and sometimes I think your Krazee but that is part of the package and if I loved everythinga bout you I’d jut be a Zoot but kisser instead of someone who enjoyed your company (posts).
You’ll always take more crap online because you risk more on line. If half of us were brave enought to write truthfully and honestly like you then we would experience the poopiness that can be the internet as well.
But i hope you keep writing just likeI hope my ‘real friends’ keep calling.
Write on….
I know from whence you come. Should I ever get to actually get to the “I actually have a baby alive here in my arms, OH MY GOD” part, I know I will KRAZEE too. Keep the internet posted, we can send donuts, which I’ve heard might help.