The bleeding continued through the night and at 5:30am, I knew I lost the baby. At that point, the bleeding and cramping stopped. We went to the doctor this morning and he confirmed what I already knew - miscarriage. Again. There is a part of me that wants to call that Dr. Asshole from Friday and be like, “I’ll show you! You patronize my paranoia and BAM! I’ll have a miscarriage just to prove you wrong!” But yeah - I don’t think that would make me feel better.
We’re sad. And that’s an understatement. I’m trying not to let myself cry too much because I have to be strong for my family today. I think we’ve decided the best way to cope today is to do something that will make us smile. So we’re going to spend some time with the kids - and just try to remember how incredibly lucky we are.
And then - after they go to bed tonight. I’ll cry.
I am so sorry sweetie!
So sorry…(hugs)
I’m so sorry.
I’m so sorry, Zoot. I just don’t know what else to say. So sorry.
Oh, that just sucks. I’m sorry.
Sending lots of good thoughts and hugs your way…so sorry.
I am so, so sorry to hear this… my heart is just breaking for you and your family. I know there is nothing anyone can say to make this better, and I can’t even imagine how you feel, but I will be thinking of you… take care of yourself.
awww I’m sorry, I really am.
Thank god though that you already have 2 beautiful children, ( I know that doesn’t make loosing one any easier) and you should just hold them that much tighter tonight and let them know how much you love and appreciate them. Anytime I hear about something like this it makes me cherish my kids that much more and I will definently be doing that tonight…and praying for you! Remember though, it’s okay to cry, don’t hold it all in. It’s how we women deal with these types of things in our lives. I’m very sorry ?
awww I’m sorry, I really am. Thank god though that you already have 2 beautiful children, ( I know that doesn’t make loosing one any easier) and you should just hold them that much tighter tonight and let them know how much you love and appreciate them. Anytime I hear about something like this it makes me cherish my kids that much more and I will definently be doing that tonight…and praying for you! Remember though, it’s okay to cry, don’t hold it all in. It’s how we women deal with these types of things in our lives. I’m very sorry ?
i am verr very sorry. Thank god though that you already have 2 beautiful children, ( I know that doesn’t make loosing one any easier) and you should just hold them that much tighter tonight and let them know how much you love and appreciate them. Anytime I hear about something like this it makes me cherish my kids that much more and I will definently be doing that tonight…and praying for you! Remember though, it’s okay to cry, don’t hold it all in. It’s how we women deal with these types of things in our lives. I’m very sorry ?
Oh God Zoot…I am so terribly sorry.
I’m so very very sorry…. you are in my thoughts.
I am so sorry for you! You are all in my thoughts…
I’m so sorry…
I am so sad to hear this news Zoot. Hugs to you all.
I’m very very sorry. Consider yourself hugged hard.
Very, very sorry. Hugs to you and you family today.
I am so, so sorry. Hugs and prayers and thoughts of comfort and peace are being sent your way.
I’m so sorry Zoot.
There are no words, so I am sending love instead to all the Zoots, especially you. It is not your fault. I know you know this but sometimes you still need to hear it, I think. You are a wonderful mother. You deserve to have as many sweet little babies as your heart can hold. I am so very sorry. ((hugs))
Oh Zoot, I am so sorry! Having been through that process myself (about a year & 1/2 before we had Li’l Foot), I know it’s so hard and I am so sorry you have to go through this. My thoughts are with you today. Be well!
Saying prayers for you.
i’m sorry to hear that. i know everyone says it and it doesn’t help, but i’m at a loss for words.
*hugs*
My thoughts are with you…may you somehow find peace and comfort through all of this.
Nothing can make the pain go away, but surrounding yourselves with people who love you is the best medicine….. oh, and maybe a zerbert (aka raspberry) fight. (((Hugs)))
I wish there was something I could do or say to make you feel better. I’m so sorry.
I am so sorry. I haven’t commented in a long time. I had to tell you that you and your family are in m prayers. Take care and once again I am so sorry.
Kim
Geez Zoot, I am so sorry as well. I was hoping for you. Been there, done that too. Treat yourself well today, thinking of you…
I’m so, so sorry. My thoughts are with you and your family.
My thoughts and prayers are with you today, Zoot. With you and your family. This happened to me back in February and I truly sympathize with you. There are no words to comfort you so just know that there are many people thinking about you today… *hugs*
much love and all the positive energy i can channel from the universe. you are in my thoughts.
Dammit. After Friday, I felt so good about things for you. I am so incredibly sad for you right now.
I really love your idea for coping today. Good luck with holding it together with the kids. You will be strong, I’m sure.
If it’s okay, some of us might not wait until tonight to cry for you though. I’m going to go ahead and do it now.
I’m so sorry and please know that you and your family are in my thoughts.
I’m so sorry. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.
So sorry. Friday’s report sounded so good. Damn hope!
May your time with the kids be full of picture-perfect moments and krispy kremes.
Zoot -
I’m so very sorry for you, Mr. Z and the kids; I can’t begin to imagine what I can offer as far as sympathy or help but know that you are in my thoughts. If there is anything - please let me know.
I’m so, so sorry.
I am so sorry Zoot. I was so hoping that this little baby would be able to hang on for the duration.
So, so sorry Zoot.
Sending you hugs… wish there was more I could do.
I.. uh… you know. xo
So sorry this happened. Just doesn’t seem right, does it? Cry as much as you need. Lots of people are thinking of you and Mr. Z.
So sorry- keeping y’all in my thoughts.
Oh man.
I am sorry as well. I wish there was something we could all do to make it just a bit better for you….I will just say some prayers and hope that helps.
Just so very very sorry.
So so sorry, my thoughts are with you
I am so sorry. I am keeping you and your family in my thoughts.
So very sorry.
Zoot, please know we are all thinking of you and your family. I know that I would not be the Mama I am today if I had not gone through a loss. And I know that there is a spirit somewhere that watches over my kids for me now… We are holding your hand all day, and as long as you need it.
I’m so, so sorry.
Be gentle with yourself this week.
:’(
I’m terribly sorry for your loss. Take care of yourself now. Don’t even think about blogging or doing anything other than being with your family. I’m with you in spirit.
I’m so sorry Zoot. *hug*
I can’t say anything except I am so sad and sorry about your news. It sounds like you have a good plan today, doing stuff that makes you smile.
I am praying for you and your family…
And eat…? You have to eat! It’s one of the only thing that EVER helps in this situation. If junkie were here I would push her in front of you and tell you to hit her like they do in Steel Magnolias because that might would help too…
My heart hurts for you guys. I love you!
I am so very sorry.
I am so so sorry…
I hope you can find some happiness today, and maybe some release later.
Kim, I’m so sorry …
hugs, Janet
I am so sorry for your loss. You and your family will be in our prayers.
that’s awful, I’m so sorry
Ohno. I’m so sorry.
I’m just so sorry, love. We’re thinking of you.
I’m so, so sorry! I lost a baby between my two kiddos so I know exactly how you feel. The best advice I can offer you is to just keep thinking about how fortunate you are to have two wonderful children. You can always try again, if that’s what you want.
I’ll be thinking about you!
–Mary
I am so sorry. It must be awful to go through and so difficult to post about. Please know we are all thinking about you.
So sorry! I’ll keep you in my thoughts (((HUGS)))
Oh Zoot. So sorry.
I’m very very sorry. I’m thinking of you.
So very, very sorry. Crying for you and sending good, healing thoughts your way. Hold those kiddies of yours extra tight today and tonight. Cry all you want!
Sweet girl….add me to the list of friends and loved ones sending you and your family only the best of the best thoughts and wellest of wishes.
I’m so sorry.
I’m so sorry to hear that. I hope you and your family are able to smile, and that you feel better very soon.
so very, very sorry. hugs
Im so sorry.
Don’t really know what to say, but I am so sorry!
I’m so sorry. You’re in my thoughts.
I am so sorry - yes, feel grateful and lucky for your two beautiful children, but allow yourself to grieve for this one too.
You are an amazing woman with an amazing family, and great things will happen to you. Okay, so that sounds a bit too much like a fortune cookie, but it’s true.
We’re thinking of you Kim.
I’m so so sorry :(. I cannot begin to understand how you must feel. *hugs*
*big big hugs* I am so sorry, Zoot… My thoughts go to you, and your family. It doesn’t make it any easier, but you have two beautiful kids, who couldn’t be luckier than to have such an amazing, strong woman such as you for a mother. It’s OK to be sad. But I hope having them in your life, will make it easier for you.
I’m so sorry Zoot. *hugs*
I just am so sorry. I know it’s little solace, but know we’re thinking of you.
I am really sorry. I hope NikkiZ does a lot of stuff that makes you laugh for the next few days (weeks).
Oh, Zoot. I am so sorry for your loss. I’ll be thinking of you.
you’re in my thoughts, *hugs*
Zoot,
so sad… so sorry…
I’m sorry, Zoot…that sucks, and there’s not much more that can be said beyond that.
Try to let MrZ take care of you for the next few days and just focus on relaxing and healing yourself.
Its been said before and you’ll here again and again, but I am so sorry this happened to you and your family. The loss of a child at any age is more then any parent should have to endure. Sending lots of love your way. Your in my thoughts today.
Zoot, I’m so sorry for your loss. I’ve been there and wouldn’t wish that pain on anyone. You deserve a tall alcohol beverage or maybe six?
My heart breaks for you and your family, Zoot. I am so sad. I feel like I know you just through your blog. I wish I could do something. I am so very sorry.
We are also very sorry, and have you in our thoughts & prayers.
Sorry about your sad news. I will be thinking about you.
I’m so, so sorry for your loss. You are in my thoughts and prayers.
Zoot, My heart is breaking for you. I can’t say how much I am sorry that this has happened! I pray for peace for you and your family today. Sending many many cyber hugs to you and yours.
So, so sorry to hear your sad news. Amazing how tragedy in the life of a “stranger” can touch our hearts; all the more so when it’s a shared experience. Peace and strength to you and your family.
Tons of hugs…
*hugs*
I know I’m a total stranger, but I wanted you to know you and your family are in my thoughts today.
I’m so very sorry to hear this Kim. You can be assured that you and your family are in all of our thoughts. Take the time to grieve and then come back as the Zoot we all know and love.
xo
So sorry, Zoot and Zoot Family. Internet {hugs}. Hopefully, just knowing that this many people have you in their thoughts today will help a little bit.
Oh friend. I’m so sorry and sad for you today. Thinking of you . . .
Oh honey. I don’t even know what to say. xoxoxo
I cried when I read this entry. I want to say something, but I can’t think of a single thing that would be even remotely appropriate for such a devastating event. I’m so sorry that this happened to you.
So very sorry to hear that news. I’m thinking of you and your family today and trying to hold in my tears. Sending hugs for you and your family.
I hate this, for you and for your family. I’m so sorry. Please take care of yourself right now, okay?
I am so sorry - you will be in my prayers tonight!
Damn I am so sorry. Love coming to you and yours.
You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.
I know it doesn’t help… but I am beyond sorry. Please know that you are in my thoughts.
I am so sorry and I hate that doctor.
I’m so terribly sorry. You’ll be in my thoughts and prayers.
Just wanted to let you know what I’ll be thinking of and praying for you and your little family.
Oh my gosh, Zoot. I am so very sorry.
oh zoot, i’m so so sorry. oh god, i’m sorry. love to you, sweet lady.
So sorry to hear this sad news. I don’t even know what to say. If you need anything, don’t hesitate to ask.
I’m so sorry Zoot and family.
I’ve been reading your site for quite a while, and your news devestates me. I’m so very sorry. We’ve been trying to have a baby for so long, and your story has given me so much hope. You continue to give me hope, and I’m thinking of your family at this time.
Thanks for being so open and inviting all of us to share your joys and sorrows.
I’m so sorry. I know it’s hard. Hang in there.
I’m so sorry. I’ll be thinking about you and your family today.
I’m so sorry, Kim. So, so sorry. *hug* (when/if you want it)
I actually felt my heart break for you. I am so sorry. You don’t have to be strong for anyone. Cry all you want.
Oh no. No, no, no, no, NO. You do not deserve this.
If I knew your address, I would send you a bouquet of newly sharpened pencils…just kidding…but I would send a big huge bouquet of sunflowers. So the internet version (a comment about them) will have to do.
Hugs to you and yours - will be thinking of you lots.
Oh, god, zoot, I am so sorry.
That is so heartbreaking. I’m so sorry and I’ll be thinking of you, MrZ, and the kids. Definitely hold them all extra tight tonight.
You’re in my heart, Zoot.
So Sorry Kim.
My thoughts and prayers for you and your family. A huge *HUG* from me too.
Zoot, I am so sorry. I wish I had some magic potion to make it better.
I am so sorry.
I know that I have never met you, but I feel like I know you from myspace, facebook and certainly from reading your blog each and everyday. My heart hurts for you and your loss brings things back into perspective for me and like everyone else has said, hug your two children tightly and I will do the same with my two. I will keep you and your wonderful family in my thoughts and prayers.
I am so very sorry to hear that
Just add me to the list of people that are sorry and will be praying for you and your family.
I’m sorry
(((((Zoot)))))
I’m crying for you.
I’m so sorry for you and your family.
Zoot, I am so, so sorry for you. More than sorry. That one little word doesn’t even begin to express…
Oh, Miss Zoot. I send you so many hugs.
wish there was more to say, sorry.
I am so so sorry. I know that doesn’t help much but it’s all I can do.
I’m sorry.
I am so sorry. Many hugs for you…
Dammit, I’m so sorry Zoots.
I am so sorry to hear your news. Sending you and your family the best of thoughts and prayers.
I am so very sorry for you and your family Zoot. Spend as much family time as you can, and take as much cry time as you need. So sorry.
Very very sorry to hear this.
I’m so, so sorry hon. My thoughts are with you and your family.
Anything you guys want/need, don’t hesitate.
I’m so sorry to hear this. You guys are in my thoughts and prayers.
I am so so sorry.
I’m so sorry. Such a roller coaster of emotions and hope and disappointment. I’m thinking about you.
So sorry for your loss.