NikkiZ was looking for paper to color on today. I couldn’t find any immediately, so I grabbed the next best thing. The lab paperwork my OB gave me to take in for some pregnancy bloodwork. I saw it and thought, “Well. Certainly don’t need THAT now.” So I gave it to her to color on. And it feld oddly cathartic.
So - I’m sitting back and having my favorite beer (since SxSW) - Shiner Bock. NikkiZ is asleep and I’m watching Take Home Chef, which happens to be my new favorite show. (Dude. Curtis is SO hott.) I’m waiting for my husband and Stace to come over so we can go hear my favorite bluegrass band: Rollin’ in the Hay. It’s going to be a fitting end to a really shitty week. I’ve received several words of wisdom and sympathy this week, but I believe the best was from my husband. He said, “I love you, babe. No matter what.”
And that’s that. We move on. I’ve cried plenty. I’ve drank plenty. I’ve hugged plenty. After tonight? I’ll have danced plenty - because even after the loss, I have plenty to celebrate. Beautiful kids. Beautiful friends. And the best thing of all: a beautiful hubby who holds my hand when I cramp and rubs my head when I cry.
And hopefully this weekend, HE’LL GIVE ME MY DAMN KITCHEN BACK.
Rollin’ in the Hay RULES. Hope you have a good time.
OK, I’ve nearly cried a couple of times, reading about all you’re going through, but I swear, this post did it.
“And the best thing of all: a beautiful hubby who holds my hand when I cramp and rubs my head when I cry.”
I love to cry about beautiful things. You’re right, you have so much. I’m glad you’re hanging on to it.
We did dance plenty. And I’m still drunk plenty. I bet you are too! I had SO mcuh fun tonight!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! God, I love you so much!
I hope it was awesome. Any night that starts out wit Shiner is bound to be a good one!
Okay. So, I didn’t actually mean to type “wit Shiner” but it was kind of funny that way.
dance dance dance!
Don’t forget to spend some time dirty dancing with your husband - he’s hott too!
Of course I don’t know you (or you me). But think of me as a friend among the internets who is sorry for your loss and wishing you and your awesome family the best.
my bf cant fix anything to save his life, so i guess you are pretty lucky that way.