I had some spotting this weekend. And while part of me panicked and had flashbacks of the last pregnancy terminating itself in my bathroom, I actually held it together pretty well. It was very light spotting, probably easily explained by the ultrasound we had on Friday. [Previous rant deleted because it was not very nice. Let's just say my ultrasound kinda hurt that day.]
In general - I’m actually quite proud of how calm I’ve been this time around. I’m nowhere close to “normal” - but I’m so far from hysterical that I might as well be a naive first-timer buying a crib at 7 weeks. I think the last pregnancy, and being so stressed and pessimistic, and realizing it didn’t hurt any less when the miscarriage came, really helped me truly see how fruitless the negativity is. I’ve been really proud of myself.
I’m still having the miscarriage nightmares, where I wake up and run to the bathroom convinced I’ll be covered in blood, but I don’t think those will ever go away. Especially since there have been times in the past when I have been covered in blood. It’s hard to undo those experiences. But overall? I’m in such a better place. The nightmares are such a small part of what I suffered before, I can cope with those just fine.
Now, if only I could quit dreaming about Big Macs and Banana Splits.
No wonder you have nightmares…you’ve gone through so much. I’m proud of the way you are holding up…at least the part that we can see on the “outside.” I hope the the bad dreams go away…and may your worst problem be a craving for Wendy’s frosties and french fries…although the Big Macs and Banana splits are a good second.
I know exactly what you mean, unfortunately. And I, too, am proud of you.
I’m sending positive thoughts in your direction… now get yourself a Big Mac! You deserve it, and the baby obviously wants one.
I’m thinking good thoughts for you. I know exactly what you mean about the miscarriage nightmares — I’m pessimistic the IUI I just had will even work. If I find out I’m pregnant in a few weeks, I think I’ll become a quivering ball of nerves.
Good for you for holding it together so well.
You’re doing great. (If it helps at all, I had the same thing happen with both my pregnancies.) Stay positive!
I would be a complete wreck in your shoes. Well, I usually am a complete wreck, so it isn’t saying much. But, I guess what I’m trying to say is, I am proud of you! You seem to be staying very calm, which has to be hard! I hope the spotting stops ASAP and you can relax a little more!
Yeah for positive thinking. I’ll join you.
I dream of pasta dishes and Mexican food. That I don’t have to cook
You are much calmer this time around. I think it is a good thing for you. Postitive thinking….I like it.
Good for you for being so calm. Maybe having less stress about the pregnancy is just what you need.
You sound like you are in such a good place right now. I am so excited for you.
Naturally, there will always be a bit of worry, but I love your attitude and I am joining you in thinking only the best thoughts for this pregnancy
Also, in your honor, I believe I will enjoy a Big Mac for lunch.
Zoot, just promise me that you won’t start craving these: http://www.ajc.com/living/content/living/food/stories/2007/10/15/Hardees_1015.html
I would definitely use the excuse of the pregnancy to go get a big mac. Good luck, I’m hoping for the best for you!
That’s really great to hear. You know what stops dreams of Big Macs and banana splits? EATING Big Macs and banana splits. You deserve it!
Great job with keeping things positive. A rough ultrasound is a perfectly reasonable explanation for some mild bleeding and is certainly a happier outlook than the worry that will inevitably be part of your experience.
Bananas splits are good for dinner..if you add nuts you get all the important food groups…plus your kids will never forget the night mom made banana splits for dinner…
I hope cuddling helps for this too.
Oh Zoot. I can’t imagine having those nightmares. You deserve both a Big Mac and banana split. Good for the soul, I tell you.
Hey, as long as you are not COMBINING the Big Mac and the banana split into one dish, I say go for it!
I am thinking of you and wishing you the absolute best.
You’ve endured so much Zoot… I can’t even begin to grasp how much you’ve been through. It’s no wonder you have nightmares. I am sending you lots of positive vibes. Ohh and fast food and fruit… both excellent for the soul, lolol