For the last two days I’ve been re-evaluating a lot of my life. Starting Monday I’m making some big changes around here and I’m not sure if I’m ready for it. I hate to be cryptic but I don’t even know what’s going on myself! (Nothing major, I promise. At least not to anyone outside these walls.) I can’t really say: Guess what? X is happening! When, I’m not really sure what X is yet. (Dude. I’m totally making it worse now, aren’t I?) But — it’s had me in a tizzy (A tizzy? What am I? 75?) and the only way I know to cope with stress in my life…(especially when I can’t drink)…is to blog. So, I pop onto my site on Saturday, when most of my readers are gone, and just unload without really saying anything. Hoping that those of you who come by on the weekends will just allow me to babble for some sort of stress relief.
I think what I’m running into is that I’m typically a “planner” and I plan ahead for everything that I see down the road. I over-plan probably. I take the fun out of life and spontaneity sometimes. So, I’m not sure how to step into this new situation on Monday since I didn’t really plan for it. Which, I’m realizing, is my own damn fault. I went last night to look for organizational things…notepads and calendars…thinking that if I could just organize the chaos, it would start to assemble into a plan. Of course I would deal with an anxiety attack by going to Staples. At least I’m sticking true to form.
But I’m frazzled. I have a list of Shit That Needs To Get Done Right Now. NOW. NOW. NOW. But, I’m so scatterbrained today that I can’t seem to make any progress on The List. So, I blog. My blogiversary is in a few days and there’s one thing I’ve come to depend on the most in the last four years: Talking It Out In Cyberspace. So, even though I haven’t said much of anything, I thank you for listening. I’m actually excited about a lot of things on my List of Things To Do and I hope to share that with you soon, after I color-code it and highlight it and file it away in a cute file box.
Haha oh Zoot. That was the most confusing entry ever. I hope you get all sorted out soon!
I say stuff that makes no sense because I don’t want to let all the information out there. Thankfully, my readers seem to enjoy the insanity!
And, I overplan to the point of sucking the FUN out of stuff that might have leaned that direction if only I hadn’t had something else, color-coded, in that space on my calendar. Therefore, one resolution was to relax and enjoy it, whatever “it” is.
I think you will somehow trudge thru whatever obstacle this is, you rock like that.
Trite, but true - big changes happen one step at a time. And babbling for stress relief is my standard way of dealing. Are you implying there’s another way?
Also, not a blogger, but obviously compulsive as I’m always checking my fav blogs on the weekend. Nice to find something, pointless or not, to read:-)
It is WAY too early to be this damn confused. I hope that whatever it is that you can’t say and don’t really know anything about works out in your best interest. xo
I’m going back to bed now.
It’s great that you’re so gung-ho about your big ideas, even if you haven’t sorted them out for yourself yet. Don’t forget to take some deep breaths now and then.
Please have some vague but heartfelt words of support and encouragement to go help you through whatever it is that fueled your moderately vague post
(Seriously, you’ll be fine, whatever it is)
Say what?
so, on monday are you going to tell us what’s up?
Huh?
Sending you good luck vibes for whatever the big plans may be.
(And don’t worry about the vagueness. I’m the queen of cryptic blog posts.)
Aww, honey. I’m not sure if you’re a Virgo or not, but you sure sound like one. And we always freak out when we have something we don’t know how to plan for. But this kind of self-awareness pays off in the end. So have faith, and keep babbling.
Good luck on the big change, whatever it might be… And I’m totally on the same (color-coded, sticky-noted, list-formatted) page about going to Staples to make everything (EVERYTHING!) better!
I spend a majority of my blogging life being cryptic. It’s ok as long as you know what you mean…but it seems like you don’t. Good luck anyways.
So, anytime you want to come to CA for a visit to help me get organized, you’re more than welcome. Just wait until after AndyZ comes so we can lock the kids in a room and drink while we do it. Did I say lock them in a room? I meant hire a highly qualified sitter. Yeah. That’s what I meant.
PS- Can we also spend our Saturday kung-fu fighting the Amalah haters? Now that’s something I thought I’d never say, but it needs to be done.
See when I feel confused and like crap the last thing I want to do is blog. I hate blogging when my heads in a mess because I need my posts to be organised. If it looks a mess once I’ve finished, I just delete it all and try again later. Or not.
Blather away all you want. You KNOW I’m always around reading blogs on the weekend!
*hugs*
Just wanted to say that I lub you.
You’re awesome, and I’m sure whatever you have planned will be awesome. Even if it makes no sense right now
Lots of love, Zoot.
Are you pregnant? I could not tell by this entry:)
hi planner! I have a disorganized plan in regards to all aspects of my life.. but I dig the whole color coding issue…
They say a cluttered mind is aggravating, and for you to put it in a cool colored box and calendar it on every cool kids calendar is A-Ok in my book. I do somewhat of the same. I found that the clutter in my space or the overwhelming “stuff that needs to be completed NOW” list looks like a novel. So I stacked it all up, and worked ONE item at a time. It’s nearly killing me because I want to sort and prioritize and organize, but in reality the “just get it done and deal with it” is my approach.
I can’t wait until Monday!
Has anyone ever told you you should be a librarian? With the OCD organization tendencies and the rockin attitude you would be a great addition to the ranks of the Lipstick Librarians…
Hope it goes well and your color-coded highlighters never run dry.
we’re always here to listen zoot! on weekends too
Wow, MOST of your readers are gone? This one post got more comments than I get in a week’s time!
Whatever you’re planning, good luck with it! I deal with my similar anxiety attacks by going thrift shopping for pretty, mismatched china. If I dealt with it by cleaning house or exercising, my home would be a showplace and I’d be fit again.
Have a great weekend
I don’t know what it says about me, but I followed you without a problem.
I could feel your anxiety/stress thourghout. I like to plan things out and have so little spontaneity I would probably put you to sleep. It makes me physically ill not to plan ahead, but that come from growing up with things being so unceratin.
I’m looking forward to your changes since you’re so excited.
Well now…I am very interested and intrigued! Hopefully it won’t be too much. I am scared of change. HA!
followed it, and feel for you! good luck getting to Monday, and as with many things … hopefully the build-up will make the actual change mild in comparison!
I lub you too, I hope all gets sorted soon. (And highlighted, organized and filed away prettily).
I love a good rant, especially a crypted one!
I’m so confused. LOL
Happy to listen. Hope everything (whatever everything is) works out for you.
wow, I am glad this helps you, because it would only confuse me further!
I am looking forward to Monday now!
Over planning, over organizing, over questioning EVERYTHING. Thats me and I ruin the surprise, spontaneity and excitement of life way too often. Good luck with all your inner dilemmas. This time of year brings it on. My birthday was just the third so it hits me hard every year. A new year and another year older just 2 days apart.
oh, you…causing all sorts of speculation all over the internet.
no seriously, whatever it is, good luck! will be looking forward to finding out what the big change is!
Oo. Are you moving? hehe.
Hang in there.