Wow. Yesterday sucked. I’ve always considered myself blessed that I don’t have any severe anxiety or depression issues because on days like yesterday it just comes so quick. I cried a lot and I haven’t done that since the miscarriage.
But you know what? I woke up this morning embarrassed with myself. Embarrassed that I had freaked out yesterday and cried and acted like things were much worse than they really are. I mean, really? Let’s not panic over lost internet or phones - it’s probably the Universe’s way of telling me to step AWAY from the computer. I’ve worked more hours per day since getting laid off than I ever have with an office job. That’s not going to improve my life, now is it? I probably needed the damn break. Someone was looking out for me.
And let’s not freak out over being unemployed. I’m unemployed with a severance. I know several who haven’t been that lucky. I also have a husband who makes more money than I did anyway, so less than half of our income was lost. And 30% of what I brought home went to daycare which we’re not pay for anymore, so in reality? Our finances don’t look that bad.
Thank you for letting me have my outburst yesterday. I’ve decided I’m not going to blame it on the pregnancy hormones this time. I’m going to blame it on The Biggest Loser because I cried during that entire 2-hour episode yesterday morning. When you start the day off watching something that emotionally charged, it’s going to be a volatile day. So - if I’ve learned anything from yesterday? It’s that you should NOT start your day off watching The Biggest Loser. Or Extreme Makeover: Home Edition for that matter. Any show that is designed to rip your heart out is NOT TO BE CONSUMED WITH BREAKFAST. They should have warnings before those shows. Screw “mature content” warnings before shows like House and CSI. I need the “May cause emotional instability for the next 24 hours” warnings.
Oh, honey, there is something about being home and being the manager of all this time with no set schedule and no set anything that will break down any mom. I go through the embarrassed about being embarrassed all the time. Welcome,e home.
Sounds like a pretty rough day! I know that I couldn’t handle even a remotely emotional show right now - it can be the proverbial straw on the camel’s back and all that.
Ok, I’m just jealous that you saw a new episode of The Biggest Loser. My DVR hates me.
I’m glad you’re feeling better. This is also one of those things you can blame on the Hormone Stew that’s brewing inside your body.
I can’t watch that show. Home edition is hard too. I just feel so guilty for existing somewhat happily and even more guilty for sometimes feeling sorry for myself when other people have REAL problems.
My car was broken into on Monday and I lost my job on Tuesday. Its been a stellar week here in Michigan. I need a nap.
I cried during Biggest Loser too. Really, really cried when Bob said only one desert a week. Then I defied him and had my second piece of King Cake.
No that was a sad eppie and I really really liked that couple that went home!!
Awwww…don’t feel embarrassed. We have all had our bad days when we feel that things couldn’t get any worse. It’s good that you got it out of your system and you have many readers out here in internet land that are willing to listen. I’m hoping your day is wonderful today! We are all rooting for you.
PS: I love the way you have a postitive outlook on things and are able to look at things and determine that they are good. That’s a hard thing to do, and is something I’m not always that great at.
And the good news about you working from home is that you have more to write and therefore, more for me to read!
I agree. It was TOTALLY the show’s fault. Hopping onto that emotional rollercoaster early in the morning is never a good sign.
You rock, Zoot. Its fine to freak out a bit, no apologies necessary.
Please do not apologize for being HUMAN!!
No need to be embarrassed. We all need to have a meltdown every now and then.
Dude! I’m so with you on those warnings. I actually stay away from certain shows just because I know I’ll get too emotionally involved! Seriously- it’s a problem I have…Warnings would really help me avoid learning the hard way which shows will get me all emotional and stuff. If you write to the FCC, you can add my name to the request!
I’m all for the emotional instability warnings.
I have been guilty of this too lately. Don’t be too hard on yourself. We’ve had problems with our light switches in the kitchen that were wired wrong one of which fried our new garbage disposal. Our hot water heater has been leaking and we had to repair that. The baby has been sick and I am out of sick leave. Just the usual things but sometimes it can be really overwhelming. You should watch something inspirational or at least mindless in the morning. I typically watch shows on HGTV or worse yet, my guilty pleasure of watching Made on MTV. I’m always so proud of those kids.
I no longer can watch “Extreme Makeover: Home Edition.” Sunday nights are tough enough with the end of the weekend; I can’t handle the added emotions.
Oh yeah, pregnant women cannot watch Biggest Loser without having major crying episodes. I was pregnant for the entire last season and lemme tell ya… it was tough. Now, I just get a little teary, but that could be the massive sleep deprivation that comes with having a three week old baby in the house.
You shouldn’t be embarassed. Sometimes a whole bunch of little things are as bad as one big thing. I’m glad you’re doing better today.
YES! YES! YES! A warning would save me from watching things like A Baby Story and that special on Siberian adoptions. Oh, and a little while back they had A Biggest Loser - Australia marathon on. And let me tell you, it left me in a funk all day long. No one should cry before breakfast, NO ONE.
That is a common problem that I have found working at home, too. You feel like you have to overcompensate and end up working 10-12 hours. Don’t stress yourself out- you worked hard to get to where you are and you are pregnant! Be kind to yourself!
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I was crying while watching Super Nanny last night…the lameness is all around you!
Ok…Steve was not crying while watching Super Nanny…I WAS.
LOL…it thought about leaving that there so people would think he was lame…but he caught me!
It’s okay, duder. Glad you’re feeling better today. Those pregnancy hormones make everyone wacky.
Oh, poodle. C’mere!! *hugs* Feel better soon. *more hugs*
Man! I forgot about Supernanny! Okay, back to you. I’ve been meaning to comment and add my support - I missed checking your site a few days and whammo! lots of changes. I know you can handle this major upheaval with your own special brand of grace and humor. Thanks for including us for the ride!
My mom used to tell me (I talk about my mom more in your blog than I do my own! Good thing she’s a cool lady!) that “if you cry before breakfast you’ll cry before dinner, too” and I find it SO very true. If I cry before my morning coffee (or even during my morning coffee), I regularly cry before dinner … rarely fails.
Anyway, know that things will settle down and you’ll get in a routine soon enough and you’ll go back to blaming your tears on your pregnancy!
I second (or third, fourth?) the “may cause emotional instability for the next 24 hours” warning.” (And I’m not even pregnant.) Can I use the excuse that I haven’t had a full night sleep since my third trimester in September 2005? I need that warning for almost everything including anything with an airport. (Please don’t revoke my ‘friends’ status on flickr, I’m emotional or sentimental, not mental, really! I just need a good night’s sleep.)