Rewind.
Can we just pretend I didn’t write that last entry just yet? And let me start later? Because today? FROM HELL. Seriously. One of those days where I was on the verge of tears all day. I’ve been a bit emotional lately – - – more sensitive than usual, but today? Extremely sensitive. So the reshaping my outlook on life and food thing? Didn’t quite pan out. Let’s chalk this up to a monster-huge FAIL.
Started the day out okay – cleaning out the old garage and organizing what will go to family, Goodwill, and the side of the road on trash pickup day. As we were finishing up I saw a black widow. This is (unfortunately) not too uncommon around this area – but it got me thinking. I have that bite on the back of my leg I really need to have looked at.
I’ve been attacked my mosquitos non-stop since we moved into our new house. Our backyard is wooded and there is a creek. Mosquitoes have always loved me. It’s just a misery I accepted as a child. But this one bite wasn’t quite acting like my normal mosquito bites. I currently have about 20 on my body (NO EXAGGERATION) so I know how to compare them and this one bite on the back of my thigh? NOT A MOSQUITO BITE. At the urging of Twitter I went to the doc-in-a-box (I dont have a GP) and after 2.5 hours of waiting and entertaining my 2-year-old I learned: SPIDER BITES. They gave me antiobiotics, told me how to bandage the bite since it’s currently oozing, and told me to keep an eye out for worsening symptoms that could indicate infection and/or rotting flesh. Yay!
Then the afternoon just got crazier. There was confusion/stress surrounding the schedule of LilZ and his friends for the weekend – requiring some back-and-forth drives as I got everyone where they needed to be. There was panicked delivery of a borrowed lawn mower as suddenly I was scheduled to drive 3 teens 60-miles away this evening. There were prescriptions to be filled and laundry to be done as a certain husband of mine has his first triathalon in the morning and politely asked me to wash his gear today. There was the 60-mile drive (one way) with small kids in the car which is ALWAYS HIDEOUS. Add that on top of the mere 45-minute naps they got and it took everything out of me not to kick them out of the car when we finally made it home and run away screaming. The only thing keeping me from doing this was knowing my antibiotics were inside the house and I feared that if I forgot them my leg would fall off.
One of those days. On top of an already emotional me and the Big Huge Lifestyle change? Out the window by 9am.
Failure? Yes. Will I try again? Certainly.
After I finish this beer. Cry. Eat this ice cream. Cry some more. Demolish that bag of chips. Cry a little. Make the cake from the mix in the pantry and eat all that. THEN cry a little bit more. Maybe after all that I’ll feel ready to change my life.
*sigh*
*hug* sounds like quite the day.
I’m so sorry that you had such a hard day! Spiders creep me out! Please take care of that bite.
When you are already undergoing such big changes in your life it is not a good time to add optional huge lifestyle changes on top of them. But you know that. Just take your time and make the changes as you can.
I’m pretty sure you have to eat cake and ice cream to make spider bites go away!!
I have been bit by a brown recluse spider-spider bites are not fun! I was bit at the top of my arm and by the time it was through, my whole arm down to my fingers swelled up. Hope everything goes well with the recovery from the bite!
Take it easy on yourself, seriously!
I hope your feeling better.
For those mosquitoes… we use Cutters BackYard Bug spray. It’s the kind that attaches to your water hose, and you spray it around. Its safe for the kids and dogs, too. It lasts about 4-6 weeks and really cuts down on the bugs.
I’m not a big fan of “bug sprays” at ALL, but this is the one thing I will use twice a summer to make our yard much more useable!
(we buy it from Target or Homedepot)
You had a bad day and cake, beer, ice cream etc. are all warranted. As someone said – tomorrow is another day!
Sometimes it is just as admirable to admit when we have met our limits and can not go any further. Find some time to relax, enjoy that beer, and try again later.
Sending loads of positive energy your way!
It sounds like today was the kind of day you just get through. So, go you for getting through it! There will be another day for acting on good intentions.
*hugs_take it easy on yourself_, a time out and go somewhere and shout or cry? *hugs & that beer was definitely warranted ^^
Dude, I hear ya. I’m in the middle of the same lifestyle changes, and you’ve got to give yourself some slack. Even Michael Pollan includes “Break the rules once in a while” in his Food Rules. Switching to all Real Food is a huge lifestyle change that our society does not completely embrace. Baby steps.
Something cool I started doing to lose weight and change my eating habits is a type of weight loss graph I saw online (and now can’t find, of course). You graph your starting weight and date (weight on y axis, dates on x axis, one square per day if you’re doing it on paper) , then plot your ideal weight loss rate (1lb a week, or whatever). Each day you weigh in and plot your weight point. If your weight is below the line, then you eat normally (including the small indulgence, if you want). If your weight is above the line, then that is a day to cut back a bit, eat more vegetables, and skip the ice cream.
I’ve only been doing this a couple of weeks, but I’m actually enjoying it. For me it was a way to take all the inspiring, logical, intuitive weight loss rules that I’ve been trying to follow and map them out in a visual, concrete way. It also takes sooo much of the emotion out of eating. Now if I have a big restaurant dinner, I think “My dot will be higher, I’ll be eating salad for a few days” instead of “Oh my god, I can’t believe I’m such weak-willed loser! I suck!” It’s been a nice change.
Miss Zoot you sound like meltdown was imminent!! HUGS!