A Lack of Self-Motivation
I’m tired! I did absolutely no housework this weekend. None. Whatsoever. I baked a lot of goodies, ate a lot of goodies, and watched a lot of Harry Potter. Hell, some of that started last Monday – the week between boot camp sessions. Those weeks are ALWAYS the worst for me. This is why I adore boot camp, it gives me an accountability that I need. Without that class? I really have very little self-motivation. And when I’m not going to boot camp, then I seem to allow myself to eat as much as HUMANLY POSSIBLE.
So, of course, I went running yesterday. I tend to do this. I feel like the LAST DAY before boot camp starts? I need to do some exercise in order to pretend like I’ve actually been exercising the whole week. Basically, I’m trying to trick myself. You know, because that is SANE.
It’s crazy I still deal with this. I’ve gotten so in love with being in shape and healthy, yet I still can’t seem to really motivate myself to be that way without either (a) A person or (b) an Event. I need someone to notice if I’m not there, or I need an event I’m trying to train for. I just can’t seem to do it without either of those there. In those situations, I become the person I was this week: A person who lays around and eats non-stop.
I wonder if this part of me will ever change.
When I think back to a year or so ago when you were lamenting that you didn’t like exercise, couldn’t get into a routine, I think you’ve come a long way. You’ve found something you like, even if you grumble about it while you’re doing it, you love it enough to miss it the week you’re off and you love it enough to keep on doing it. If you can come this far, you can go the rest of the way — IF YOU WANT TO. I think you probably want to, if you’re writing about it this way.
I think we all like to be lazy, we all like to procrastinate — or at least a LOT of us do (me included). During my last month off from work (I was laid off at the end of May and although I found a new job right away, they didn’t want me to start for a month), there were some days that I didn’t get dressed until late afternoon, after I’d exercised.
I know that for me, I NEED to exercise for my mental health. If I don’t, well, let’s just say I’m not very nice to be around. That is enough motivation for me. But it may not be what works for someone else.
There’s nothing wrong with taking a little break from exercise every so often. But if you’re eating lots of sweets, or lots of anything during the week you’re off, that’s not doing you any good, and you know it.
I’m not a fan of nagging — but if you want, I’ll but you to exercise during your week off! :p I just can’t keep you from pigging out (although I guess I could nag you about that, too, I’m just not there to slap your hand when you’re grabbing those cake poppers). Any way you could force yourself not to make the “bad” stuff on your week off?
Make that “I’ll bug you to exercise!” :p
I try to do my daily exercises ( I am obbliged because I have scoliosis and I need to do my scoliosis exercise once a day), but I feel tired for a month now…