A Run To Take The Krazee Away

Photo credit to my sister-in-law who takes this same photo with my brother everywhere. GENIUS.

So, last Wednesday I ran and realized my knee was hurting pretty bad. So I took off everything until my trail run on Saturday. Which I ended up cutting short because my knee hurt whenever I ran downhill. (BUT ONLY WHEN I RAN DOWNHILL!) I decided to keep boot camp going this week and even did a workout on Sunday, and my knee hasn’t hurt once in boot camp. BUT I haven’t run since Saturday, and before that since Wednesday. That’s 2 runs in a week and I WAS SPIRALING DOWNHILL FAST.

I’ve gained 5lbs in 2 weeks. I wish I could say I was exaggerating, but I’m not. I’m telling you – when I say that running is my therapy? I’m dead serious. Without my daily runs I am more prone to binging at night and anxiety attacks. I get wrapped up in YUCK without my runs. YUCK I tell you…YUCK!

I decided last night to brave a SHORT and FLAT run. And by “short” I mean 4 miles which is KRAZEE than I now call that a “short” run. But that’s not the point. I got out and ran and it felt SO GOOD. My knee twinged a bit, but never really hurt. And it feels stiff this morning, a little sore, but not bad. I’m not wincing while going downstairs like I did last week.

Am I 100%? Hell, no. I want to run again tonight but not sure if I should. But man – it improved my mood so drastically it’s tough.

My point? This was not me in the previous four years I’ve tried running. Since 2006 I’ve tried various training programs and run different schedules and never have I ever felt so attached to it as I do now. I guess because I didn’t stick with it, it never stuck with me. But this time, I stuck to the plan and ran what I was supposed to run and after several months it became a part of me and now? I’m a wreck without it.

It’s a very weird feeling. To be so glad that something so good for me is something I need so terribly, but it’s also a bit scary to know without it I fall apart. I mean, seriously, I’ve been out of sorts for two weeks. My schedule feels off, my memory seems to be crap, I’m not sleeping well…all because my running schedule is off. I’m feeling equal parts, “Yay! I’m addicted to running!” and “Crap. I’m addicted to running.” Because – you know – it would be nice to stay functioning at a high capacity without running OR binge eating.

But I guess if I have to choose one, I’ll choose running.

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5 Responses

  1. Fraulein N says:

    Yay, for having a healthy addiction! I dearly wish I could get to the point where exercise actually makes me feel GOOD.

  2. Tamara says:

    I was the same way until I was sidelined with IVF issues and now pregnancy, but yeah, the running through pain thing can be rough. Just my tips, not assvice (I hope!) when I was marathon training and had knee trouble, I would take 2 Advil before my long runs, and ice my knees immediately after running. I’m not sure if you’re getting any swelling at all, which is why I iced, but the Advil did help. Also, I read a lot about form and just doing some slight form adjustments (especially for long runs) helped my pain immensely. And one last thing, (because I want to be your running enabler!) have you been wearing your shoes for a long time? I changed up my running shoes and that helped a different pain I was having. Just a thought.

    Keep running!

  3. Heather says:

    Ooo, I had downhill running knee pain, and it ended up being IT band syndrome (i.e. runner’s knee). Maybe read up on that and try some of the stretches in case they help? Also, I agree with another commenter who suggested new shoes. Rest, Aleve, IT band stretching and new shoes pretty much cured me within about a month of figuring out the problem. Hope this might help a bit! Happy running!

  4. Heather says:

    I just bought a treadmill. Hopefully it becomes totally addictive ;)

  5. wwbd says:

    I can so relate! I have a workout program that I love. Unfortunately I’ve pulled both of my calves in the past couple of weeks. It so depresses me and freaks me out to consider not working out, that I’ve continued with some modifications. Sadly I don’t seem to be healing, so I think I might actually have to rest :(. I guess I can still work out arms, but it’s not the same. I also find that I am much more hungry on the days that I don’t work out. It’s such a bad cycle. Blah. I’m glad your knee issue seems to be resolved, though!

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