Today is the first day of February, which means January is over. The first month of 2012 is over. We can now officially analyze our progress with my our 2012 resolutions!
You go first. How are you doing?
FINE. I’ll go first. Let’s get the bad out of the way. My eating habits have not been adjusted like I had hoped they would. Do you like how I phrase that? Like it’s some sort of thing I’m hoping will just happen as opposed to something I might have failed at. I like to divert responsibility when at all possible.
IN MY DEFENSE…I knew this would be a rough time, the first part of the year. I knew with all of my theatre volunteer obligations (There are TWO shows being worked on at this very moment and E is in both of them and Nikki and Wes are even in one of them) that I’d be busy and a bit stressed and we ALL know what Kim does when she’s stressed. SHE EATS EVERYTHING IN ALL OF THE BOXES.
It’s been a rough four days especially. Non-stop eating and this time it wasn’t the usual 3 peanut butter sandwiches and bowls of cereal. This time I’ve been doing some REAL anxiety binging. Due to some unfortunate shopping decisions I’ve had cookies and chocolates and due to some birthday leftovers we had ice cream and cheesecake last week. I hate THREE pieces of cheesecake for LUNCH one day. Anxiety eating insanity? Has reached previously unknown heights in 2012. I’m setting new standards for stressful calories gained in one day! GO ME!
Gained a few pounds but you know what’s great? Today is FEBRUARY 1st! Perfect day for someone like me to “start over” and let February be a better month than January. WHO IS IN?
Now…my fitness on the other hand? Going well. I’ve had to miss a few boot camps due to babying of my IT band, but I’ve stayed pretty consistent with my running. I made my goal of 100 miles a month and did 106 as of yesterday. I’ve done a chunk of trail miles in all of that – some really tough ones that week including one stretch that was so steep it had a warning sign at the TOP (when I finally made it there) warning of the “Dangerous Descent” ahead.
And then yesterday I killed a hill workout at boot camp. This hill in the picture (which it seems is not that impressive to some people who look at the photo…but I’m still proud) elevates about 130ft over a 1/4 mile. It’s not super-steep, but it’s a long steady climb and I ran it SIX TIMES during our workout. Up and Down. Up and Down. SIX TIMES. I was super-proud of myself. Not only because I did it six times, but because it was kinda…well…easy. I mean, I struggled, but for the first time since we’ve been doing that workout I didn’t once consider walking. NOT EVEN ONCE.
So…100 miles for a few pounds of anxiety eating. I guess I can process the trade-off and still call it a WIN for 2012. Mainly because I’m so proud of those six hill repeats that I can’t stand letting my nightly stress eating take away any of that. SIX TIMES!
I’ve always stood by that there are no magic transformative moments, it’s a lot of baby steps forward, and baby steps backward, before you see real change. 2011 still saw me in the “IMPROVED” column and I’m planning on the final report of 2012 to say the same thing. Even if there are a few late night cheesecake binges scattered throughout the successes.