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The Funk.


Maybe it’s coming off of my birthday week which was excellent in terms of food and exercise and family gatherings. Maybe it’s just the time of the year when I miss my Dad. Maybe it’s the exhaustion over some new parenting techniques we’re using to improve Wes’s behavior but that require 100% of our attention when we’re around him. Maybe it’s the headaches. Maybe it’s that my calf is bugging me. Maybe it’s that I can’t find my favorite earrings and my hair is driving me batty. Maybe I’m not getting enough sleep. Maybe I’m bummed that the sequel to “Discovery Of Witches” is getting bad reviews. Maybe I’m sick of this weather.

Either way…I’m in a funk.

I hate it when I get down, because I pride myself on being upbeat and in control of my moods. I like that I can just see the positive in so many things and try my best to bring smiles to those around me.

Which is why when I’m in the funk? It turns into this weird downward spiral of shame. “I’m sad which means I can’t make other people happy which means I become sadder which means I can’t leave the house which makes me saddest of all.”

Or some such psychotic nonsense.

And of course – as we’ve all discussed (“We” being “Those of us who cope with depression and anxiety with food.”) – when I’m really sad/down? I eat. Which makes me more sad/down. Which lengthens the downward spiral of psychotic nonsense into some dark and dreary subplanet of depression where the puppies are all ugly and rainbows are in black and white.

I’m in a funk.

So…I need to snap out of it. I need a slap on the face. A punch in the gut. A wake-up call. Something that will shake me loose of the gray and remind me of the sun that is always present in my life.

In other words? Post links to pictures of cute kitties and videos of laughing babies.

Thank you very much.

Edited To Add: THANK YOU JEZEBEL.COM FOR GIVING ME THIS!

22 thoughts on “The Funk.”

  1. I don’t tend to do the little kitties but I have some other inspiring happy bits.

    Quote 1
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    Two random videos – I love the songs they are kinda funny videos.

    Good Morning Sunshine by Alex Day
    This Kiss by Alex Day and Carrie Hope Fletcher

    Video number three and four – mad sign language that either makes me laugh or fascinates me due to the speed (Guess which one is proper BSL!)
    Torn by Natalie Imbruglia – Secret Policeman’s Ball 2006 for Amnesty International :)
    You Need Me I Don’t Need You by Ed Sheeran (there is a little bit of swearing in it so maybe don’t play with the kids running around – I couldn’t find the radio edit :(

    Enjoy :)

    1. Kim, you have to realize how many of us absolutely think you are one of the most awesome females alive on our planet. We are in awe of how you seem to keep doing so much with your running like signing up and training for an Ultra Marathon (that?s 50 MILES people – not 50 k!!!), boot camp every flipping morning (that’s 5 days in a row!!), taking care of and nurturing 2 small kids and a husband all the while getting one ready to leave the nest (ALL emotional ages for a momma), as well as ? in ALL your spare time ? supporting those of us that don’t think we can do *stuff* but try anyway because you believe in us and encourage us and root us on. Think of this little funk as making the good moods that much sweeter when they return (and they WILL be back). Know that you are adored, admired, and a damned awesome role model for a lot of us (even those of us a heck of a lot older) … but most of all you are loved!! Hang in there dear friend, because you will find your earrings one day, your hair WILL soon behave (probably with less humidity ), better weather will eventually get here (I wish it would hurry!), you WILL get more sleep, and better books are definitely just around the corner ? although I too am pretty bummed about ?Discovery?s? sequel :(

      1. Thanks Dawn!!! And here’s to hoping the the “Discovery” sequel is still good and that we love it, because that’s all that matters :)

  2. Ok, this isn’t technically a “cute kitten” video, but it makes me laugh my butt off every time I watch it!

  3. I don’t have cute kitten pics (I’m at work …) BUT. I did want to tell you that I’ve been reading through your blog a lot lately. And first thing – Wes is the same age as my daughter Chloe – and holy cow I’m having the same issues and they are killing me as well (love her to death, but seriously …)
    Second thing. I was in a total funk, and made a lot of life changes since January. And I’ve always been a 5k runner and always said “a 5k is my marathon” and then I started reading your recent posts. And I was like wow. I’m being crazy. Yesterday I signed up for a quarter marathon (10.5 k) and it’s on Saturday. And, really, it’s because I kept reading about you doing all your crazy stuff. And thought what the heck.
    (It’s possible this may be my last comment ever as it may kill me, but I think I will survive.)
    Also – I eat my way through funks and stress and anxiety as well.
    I think you’re awesome. And thanks for writing such an awesome inspiring blog.

  4. I am in awe of you, you are my inspiration to get out there and just do it (to steal a phrase!). I love reading your blog because you are so honest and say what so many of us are feeling but don’t say.

    Would you share the things you’re doing with Wes? We’re not at quite the same stage, but we’re having some behavior challenges and I’m still looking for something that clicks with my son.

    1. I am planning on sharing it if it works more than a day! It’s my version of behavior charts and we’re working out the kinks (We need to figure out how to quantify NO WHINING) and when we do I’m definitely going to write about it!!!!

  5. Have you ever tried yoga? I know it sounds all tree-huggy and hippy-ish, but it really, really helps me. I needed to add something to my feeble attempts at running, and after having some knee issues, I decided to go for yoga for its non impact strength building potential. One forty minute yoga routine gives me two days of good and happy feelings. There’s one on Netflix-Candle Light Yoga or something similar that is my current favorite. I even cheat and put the laptop on the couch with the yoga on Netflix while I watch DVR’d shows. Keeps me out of the ice cream.

    I’m just coming out of a funk right now, so I totally know how you are feeling.

  6. This ALWAYS cheers me up! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2btR9rAcdzo

    I also like to think about this quote from Margaret Atwood’s “Year of the Flood”: “The Gardeners would never say depressed. The Gardeners believed that people who acted like Veena were in a Fallow state – resting, retreating into themselves to gain spiritual insight, gathering their energy for the moment they would burst out again like buds in the Spring.“

    (There’s more to the story than that — Veena’s outcome wasn’t a happy one — but I do think there is value in recognizing those times when you’re in a funk as a time to tend the soil, so to speak — to use the opportunity to dig deep and figure out what you need to do to replenish yourself.)

  7. Im sorry to hear about the funk. I know all about those….you can usually find me knee deep in a bowl of chips sprawled on my couch watching old episodes of Buffy. It really is difficult to just snap out of it isnt it? And hearing book two of the Discovery of Witches isn’t getting good reviews sucks but I find some people who review books like that don’t really like the genre so its pointless!
    That you for the lil Drac clip–made my afternoon xoxo

  8. Hi zoot, hugs xxx and hope u feel better soon~~~dun be so hard on yourself~~ & oh the lil drac clip s so cute~~

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