I started my blog some time in January of 2004 on Typepad. The specifics are unclear, but I know I immediately connected with Amy and we formed a small little tribe of bloggers early on that did weirdo projects to get traffic to our blogs. Although I’m not sure that was the point of the projects…but it was a side effect. During those first few months, because of those projects, I actually became quite addicted to blogging with a decent level of traffic for a beginner. Around April of that year I gave up on Typepad and moved here…to misszoot.com…and my own self-hosted blog. The problem was that I was smart enough to set up my own blog, but too dumb to understand I could import entries from the Typepad one. I copied and pasted some of my favorite entries and the rest went the way of the virtual dump.
So, for ALMOST ten years I’ve been at misszoot.com, but I don’t like to discount that first 4 months so I always celebrate my blogiversary in January. And tomorrow it will be TEN DAMN YEARS. I will write my 5,000th post tomorrow on the beginning of my second decade of blogging. AND THIS BLOWS MY MIND.
Those early blogging friendships really helped solidify this blog because – simply – they gave me enough traffic to make me feel like it was worth the effort. I also started writing a lot about my reproductive issues which gave me the years of my highest traffic. It’s weird how blogging about miscarriages increases the pageviews. I like it because it means people are finding their communities, but it feels weird to think, Oh…I don’t get as much traffic as I did when I used to write about pregnancy loss.
I also used to open this blog up for guest posting, and I thought that was the majority of the reason why I had hit 5000 entries in 10 years, because some days I’d have 30 posts in one day. However, when I went to look up authorships it’s all just me. So, either those posts are gone and I wrote all of these 5000 entries, or there a couple hundred entries with my authorship that I didn’t write. So if you ever stumble upon a post that doesn’t seem like it was written by me? Let me know.
Either way – today is 4,999. That’s a hell of a lot of posting.
I really do love this place. It’s so weird to imagine life without blogging. I’ve seen bloggers come and go. I’ve seen people retire and return. I’ve seen people blog for pay successfully and not-so-successfully. I’ve seen people fade away, with a 3-year-old entry still hanging out on their front page.
And while my topics have changed a lot over the years, I’ve not really ever changed my rhythm. When I had tons of traffic I would not post another entry until the last entry had at least 10 comments, but that’s a rule from long past. I don’t think about that any more. I actually don’t even look at my traffic anymore. I keep the social tools up so I can catch something if it goes viral which has only happened ONCE, but otherwise I just ignore it because – in 10 years – I’ve learned that it’s harder to write when I’m thinking about stats. And I’ve written pretty consistently, obviously, over the 10 years. My typical rhythm is one post ever weekday, but obviously I’ve done more than that to hit this number in 10 years. But still – that’s the basic rhythm I’ve kept over 10 years and I’m quite proud of that consistency. I can promise you that if I started thinking about page views or advertising that would drop substantially, which is why I’ve avoided that like the plague.
I just can’t believe all of the wonderful things this little place on the web has given me in life. Friends, community, adventures, and confidence. But mainly? This place is my safe place. I only self-censor in the way I want to self-censor. I don’t ever want to hurt anyone with my words, no matter what form they take, but other than that? This place is all me. And sometimes I come in here and I just hide and I feel safe buried under a decade of words…of my words. And I’ve never been disappointed when I unload here, there are always voices to raise me up even just to say, “Me too.”
So, thank you. If this is the first thing you’ve ever read…or if you’ve been here since I was pregnant with Nikki (that’s when most people found me)…or if you’re Amy and remember the days of the Typepad haikus – I’m just so grateful for everyone. Every voice I’ve met along the way. Whether a comment on a blog post, or a feed in my feed reader. Whether an email of support or a Tweet of sympathy. All of the voices have given me such joy and I really can’t imagine any other option but to keep going for another 10 years. This is my morning coffee. My therapy. My support group. My life would be a lot more out of control without it.