Category: My Reproductive Nightmare

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Quick Update

The surgery took me out for way longer than it was supposed to yesterday. I even missed Wes’s Kindergarten orientation. Here is the FB update I posted last night when I stayed awake long enough to update family and friends and eat some damn food because I was STARVING TO DEATH. I am super behind on life today, sorry to duplicate the same thing from FB. But, I’m too busying trying to each double the amount of caffeine and food I can to make up for yesterday. Kim’s Update  My heart rate measured 49 and 45 at different points. They...

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The Perfect Example Of “Mixed Emotions”

Today is the day of my endometrial ablation. I haven’t had anything to eat or drink since midnight (when I wolfed down two protein bars and chugged some water) and the procedure is at noon today. I am feeling the perfect storm of Mixed Emotions about this. One one hand? I’m so ready to have this done. We’ve been talking about it for years and as soon as we decided that we were okay giving up the chances of having more kids, I’ve been counting down the days to get it done. Between my endometriosis, my fibroids, and my ovarian...

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The End Of An Era

I’ve discussed before that the last miscarriage I had was the last straw for me emotionally. The 10 weeks of anxiety followed by the eventual loss nearly broke my heart. Each miscarriage seemed to be harder for me to “get over” but that last one was the closest I’d ever come to feeling like I needed professional help. That, combined with my constant state of reproductive hell due to endometriosis, fibroids, and cysts – and I settled in to really wanting to give up on any more kids and to have an ablation. Unfortunately, Donnie wasn’t on the same page...

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I’ll be okay no matter what. Because of you.

We still have a heartbeat! We also still have a bit of the subchorionic hematoma, so I’m still under watch/restriction until the next appointment in two weeks. But still! Heartbeat! That’s always a thing to celebrate. So we did. We told everyone we knew. (Except Nikki and Wes still.) Because we wanted them to all know our joy at heartbeat #2, and we all wanted them to be thinking about us these next two weeks as we stress and worry about whether we’ll see it again. When you find out you’re pregnant, just about every website mentions that week 12...

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Dear Michelle Duggar,

I don’t know you at all. I just know that whenever you get pregnant, the internet has A LOT OF OPINIONS about your pregnancy. My own dark reproductive history has conditioned me not to have opinions about anyone else’s reproductive situation. So, whenever you got pregnant, I just found myself scrolling past the endless tweets, facebook statuses, and blog posts about your latest blessing. Although, I’ll admit, I did periodically feel a pang of jealousy. But I feel that whenever anyone gets pregnant, regardless of who they are or how many children they have. But today? A tidbit caught my...